My 15 minutes of fame...

Following suit.

2006-10-03T07:25:59Z

I just recently (as in less than 5 minutes ago) noticed that my old friend millennial had retired his journal (over a month ago).

I also recently noticed that my last "actual" entry (not including this) was in march. The july one was automatically done by digg.

So, in following suit, I think I'll retire my journal as well.

Between this one and my old one (d1g1t4lr34l1ty), I think there is enough of my self-pity and angst on the internet.

I wonder what my next outlet will be?

iam7384daysold @ 2006-03-29T03:16:00

2006-03-29T08:25:23Z

I've come through a lot to get me where I am. The stress I feel these days is high. I still struggle with the other "mes" inside, the ones that have a tendency to sabbotage me. The ones that are meant as a security measure, but instead undermine my attempts at success. I have found that the further that I get in catching these other versions of me up to where I stand now, and help them realize that I do not need their "security" anymore, the more I realize the next step in my healing process will involve anger. I have noticed higher levels of actual expressed anger toward people that piss me off. I think my ability to hold that in is tied to my other "mes."

I don't know what is next.

Oh, I also put a staple THROUGH the tip of my finger. And, it didn't hurt. I am now less afraid of piercings. The staple entered the tip of my finger and penetrated through my nail, and came out of the other side. I pulled it out with a pair of pliers. If you'd like to see the lovely stapler that did it: Click Here

For those who don't want to read, the stapler, MECHANICALLY puts standard staples through 25 sheets of paper. Can embed them into wooden chairs, or shoot them across a room. It also easily penetrates skin. As it were, it does this effortlessly (one finger will do the trick). I could have taken the staple out of my finger, and put it right back into the stapler, and used it again, as it was not bent.

Building my own computer, Part 2

2006-02-12T22:16:39Z

So, I finally got my computer working. I ordered a working motherboard from ASUS, and now I have a working system. One problem. In the midst of it, I went to format my 80GB HD and it wouldn't get past 3%. Everytime. I tried doing it with 3 different programs. Partition magic locked at 3%, Windows locked at 3%. Windows setup on the other hand went up to 3% at a slow speed and then finished the rest in less than a minute. Afterward, it told me that the disk was damaged and could not be formatted.

After all of that, now my bigger hard drive is dead. Fuck. I don't have the money to get another until maybe after spring break.

but my Pentium D system is up and running!

Building my first computer.

2006-01-25T08:16:14Z

So, I got my RAM and put all my computer parts together today.

And when I turned it on, everything started whirring and making noise. Then, I didn't hear a beep. (Insert Long Story Here)....Called MSI (mobo mfr.) and found out that, although their site and newegg's site don't specify which of the Intel Pentium D's work on the board, only that Pentium D's work, that my Pentium D 920 does not function in this board. Only the 8xx's function in the board. BUT NEITHER SITE SPECIFIES A SERIES NUMBER! So, now, I have to send my board back, at my own expense, and get another one, that DOES support the chip.

I just want a working compy :(

Back in the poor house.

2006-01-18T08:04:30Z

So, who wants to buy $800 in computer parts?

That's right. Me.

-Intel Pentium D 920 at 2.8

-MSI Mobo, for the Pent.D, with DDR2 DC 667, Sata-II (eSata?), Sata, IDE, PCIX-16, PCIX-1, PCI, USB2 (4 on the back, 6 pin headers), 2 firewire, On-Board GBit LAN...etc

-eVGA nVidia 6600GT PCIX-16, 128 MB GDDR3

-512 DDR2 667 (5300)

-Sony DVD+/-RW|DL+/-RW|CD-RW

-Power SUpply (500W)

-Thermal Paste

etc. etc.

Talk later, when I get said parts.

R.I.P. Pres. David Palmer

2006-01-16T09:08:02Z

Well, for the past few months I had been reading up on 24 rumors, to see if I could shed light on what might be happening on 24 this season. Among many of that stuff, I found a few sources that referred to "many series regulars" being killed in the first few minutes. I also found something that referred to "someone important" being killed. On top of those two, I also came across something that talked about "people that knew Jack was alive" being killed one by one. Couple that with the FOX ads with a shot of a sniper rifle, and another with something blowing up, and it starts to get clear. So I thought to myself "What big characters could they kill off?" Palmer, Tony, Michelle, Chloe, and Jack were the only ones to come to mind, as they were the only ones that knew Jack was alive. It was obvious, given that Kiefer had signed on for another season, that he wasn't out. So the big target, would have been Palmer. Easy enough. I thought "well, Palmer is probable gonna get shot." It later become obvious that Tony and Michelle were next as soon as the scene in their house was taking place. I was waiting for that car to blow up, but not the second time. So, I essentially ruined the "big" surprises.

Still there is only one 24 moment that got everyone. And that was around 11:59pm, on Day 1.

Oh, BTW, I'm now 22. Yea for me.

Really?

2005-12-28T22:35:32Z

Damnit.

Haughty Intellectual

You are 85% Rational, 14% Extroverted, 14% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant.

You are the Haughty Intellectual. You are a very rational person, emphasizing logic over emotion, and you are also rather arrogant and self-aggrandizing. You probably think of yourself as an intellectual, and you would like everyone to know it. Not only that, but you also tend to look down on others, thinking yourself better than them. You could possibly have an unhealthy obsession with yourself as well, thus causing everyone to hate you for being such an elitist twat. On top of all that, you are also introverted and gentle. This means that you are just a quiet thinker who wants fame and recognition, in all likelihood. Rather lacking in emotion, introspective, gentle, and arrogant, you are most certainly a Haughty Intellectual! And, most likely, you will never achieve the recognition or fame you so desire! Sweet!

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.

Compatibility:

Your exact opposite is the Schoolyard Bully. (Bullies like to beat up nerds, after all.)

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Braggart, the Hand-Raiser, and the Robot.

If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

The other personality types:

The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 75% on Rationality
You scored higher than 12% on Extroversion
You scored higher than 9% on Brutality
You scored higher than 63% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

I EXCLAIM!

2005-12-27T02:25:18Z

I'm freaking bored.

Oh yeah, and apparently, I'll be on the Dean's List.

Hidden Entry.

2005-12-20T03:54:41Z

*** The Entry Preceding this one is private and hidden from public view.***

The countdown....

2005-12-17T00:44:06Z

Grades This semester:

(3) Institutions: A
(3) Data Structures: A
(3) Sound Design: AB
(4) Calculus 2: B
(1) Object Oriented Design: A

G.P.A: (14) 3.6

I fucking rock!

Whoa, where am I?

2005-12-11T13:10:52Z

Hmmm, it appears that I still have a journal.....

I had almost forgot.

Well, something that I think Microsoft is doing RIGHT.

2005-11-21T06:21:10Z

Apparently, in a move that shocked the hell out of me, you can get the big 4 Visual Studio products, free (limited), if you download them in the next year or so. They will then start charging $50 for the entire package.

Most of the stuff that I would use or would like to use is included in the "Express" editions, including access to the new .NET Framework. The only issue I have is that they provide *NO* deployment tools. Otherwise, this is the first time in a long time that I would like to say to Microsoft, "Good Job guys!"

I think the test is rigged.

2005-10-25T17:29:54Z

Depression, the school, and gardening.

2005-10-09T21:11:01Z

So, I've been seeing a "therapist" (the counselor at school, who basically is my therapist) weekly since the beginning of school, and I've been doing good. We've avoided medication, and I'm sticking good to school. I've not skipped any classes, and although I have woken up late once or twice, I still went to class, which is something that I would not have done before. All the stuff that I have done for classes lately have come back with A's on them (90%+) which is great, and on top of that I am staying ont top of my homework for the most part ( I have missed a Calc assignment or two). But things are going great so far.

Oh, and yes:

Hey, you can win a free iPod!

2005-09-24T06:28:43Z

Yeah, like this is gonna work for me!

On rage, roomates, and honesty.

2005-08-31T05:00:25Z

It gets overwhelming sometimes. I have been able to bite my lip a lot, but it is becoming harder to do so. I think that I have held up so much inside that there isn't room anymore. Today alone, I went off on both of my roommates, for questioning me or things about me. They're little things, but I've reached a point where I don't want to keep quiet. One of my roommates questioned my taste in watching a TV show, and my other one questioned my honesty. The honesty thing is a big one for me, because I have tried very hard to become more honest to the people around me, as opposed to lying about anything and everything. The only person I lie to anymore really is my father, and that's an act at not dissappointing him. I try to hide my failures from him, and to do that I need to lie every now and again.

Home > 94 > 696 > 75 > MB > 2 > 77 > 28 > 41 > Houghton

2005-08-19T08:34:30Z

This will be my last post before I get to Tech. I am extremely tired right now, but I will get to sleep in 5 hours. Once I wake up, I get to drive 10 hours. Yea! See you folks on the flip side.

I'm not a praying man....but.....

2005-08-17T02:23:52Z

After all the stuff I'm going through to get back into school, it never fails that another problem will arise in the NellieMae/Tech communcation area. Now tech wants 3000 for my tuition, because I'm guessing that NellieMae hsn't paid up yet. NellieMae said they'd pay up yesterday. I'm sick and tired of neither one of these two institutions doing anything remotely useful in regard to me borrowing money. AAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!! I leave in 4 fucking days and I'm still not sure that I will be able to do it, and everytime I think it's ok, something else gets fucked up.

Google, google, google.....

2005-08-16T05:51:06Z

Google used their "maps" interface to show the moon landing sites. If you zoom all the way in, you can actually see the lunar landers.

moon.google.com

Repeating classes can save you a little money / why I'm ready to not work for Blockbuster

2005-08-14T05:15:50Z

Books this semester are only going to cost $94. That's pretty good. Then again, I have the books for two of the classes, one of my classes doesn't have a book, and the other two have really cheap books. Oh, well, I was prepared to spend much more than that.

I'm almost done working for Blockbuster, maybe. I may or may not work for the one in Houghton, as I have said time and time again. It depends. I'm sick of a lot of things, but I'm going to miss a lot of the other things. I must be the only store / only district that didn't get a whole bunch of 16/17 year old high school students who could give a fuck less about their job, just as long as they get their paycheck. I keep hearing (and seeing) from everywhere else that I am truly luck in this regard. I'm also pretty tired of being told by some of (not all of) my bosses, that I can't give movies negative reviews. If 25 customers come and tell me that Alexander sucks, I'm going to tell the next one that asks me if it's good, that no, it isn't, or at least not according to the last 25 people that brought it back. I'm tired of Corporate sending a whole bunch of really horrible movies to our store, and not nearly enough of the good ones. I'm tired of Corporate being the SOLE decider of which movies we do not get, and which ones we do. Or which ones to take off the shelves and which ones not to. It really should be up to the store manager, as he knows his (or her) customers the best. I'm also pretty tired of the impersonal treatment that Corporate has toward the employees of their "BU"s (Stores. It stands for business unit, which I guess makes the big wigs feel better when they act like employees are just money. Makes it feel less personal.) And most of all, I'm tired of an antiquated computer system that I could redesign better by myself, and that just happens to be a year my junior.

Well, that was a rant. Oops. Just excited to get away from working I guess. Speaking of, I have to be there in 8 hours or so.

A watched pot never boils....

2005-08-13T03:49:52Z

...and an unattended student loan doesn't get processed. I swear that I might as well be working at Nellie Mae at this point, because if I didn't call them, my loans would never get processed.

I call them today to get the scheduled disbursement dates for my loans (in other words, seeing if they were approved and processed) and the guy tells me that noone has *TOUCHED* my loan since August 1st. In essence, if I didn't call them, they would not have done anything. So they, with the motivation of me asking them why, go ahead and actually process them. Tonight, they re-passed the credit check (which if they didn't I'd be pissed, because my credit hasn't changed since the last time they passed the credit check), and are scheduled for disbursement.

I now know more about the student loan process than I ever wanted to.

Not only that, but my ass hurts cause I just fell down the stairs. Ahhhh, sssssssssssss! Ahhhh, sssssssssssss....

...2 damn semesters, it was only $17 grand....

2005-08-12T04:23:26Z

So, counting down, I have a week and a day left (plus about 3 hours). I plan on leaving August 20th, 3am (Friday night/Saturday Morning) so that I can be there Saturday afternoon to check in.

I get my second to last paycheck from Blockbuster as of the 19th, that Friday, and I might get another, although smaller, check two weeks later. With any luck, I might be able to work an occasional shift at the Blockbuster in Houghton, but the odds of that are looking quite grim.

Once I get up there I have limited time to adjust to school life again, and have many things that need to be done. One, I have to unpack everything. Two, I have to buy books with the negative balance on my bill. Three, I have to get situated with appointments at the White House again. Four, get on the medication that they will inevitably give me. Five, actually attend ALL of my classes, EVERY day. Six, repeat 1-5 for the next two-three years, with 3-4 being unnecessary if I am "cured."

But all in all, I have not been this excited since my first summer at Cedar Point, and my first year at school. I'm looking forward to everything; the drive, the people, Winter Carnival, Broomball. I really do mean everything.

(d:hh:mm:ss)
8:02:29:59, 8:02:29:58, 8:02:29:57, 8:02:29:56, 8:02:29:55, 8:02:29:54....

It has two colors!

2005-08-05T21:25:31Z

I installed a car radio today. I'm special.

I like it.

Features...

Now I just need speakers!

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On another note, my AP scores got to MTU. I got my 4 credits. My enrollment is confirmed and tech now owes me $1,330. Happy days are here again!

Words mean nothing at a time like this....

2005-07-27T04:55:50Z

Mike,

I don't do prayer, so I can't include you in what I don't have. But thoughts I do have, and since I have found out, I have not let it out of my mind for more than 2 hours (saw The Island). You get the thoughts though. And of course, a place to turn to if need be, but there are plenty of people more qualified for that (Parents, Siblings, Sublings[j/k], etc.), but it's here if the others aren't around. I'm serious about the coming down again, or me coming up there. I thought about that before you two left my house Sunday.

I agree with Wokig. I woulda been in jail. But do yourself a favor, and don't lock that shit up. Even if it means a 2 hour post to this service. I wish I had this back in 2001, or for that matter knew about it (if it existed).

Well, good luck Mike. Talk to/See you/E-mail you/comment on you later.

Estuans interius, ira vehementi.......

2005-07-25T02:53:10Z

Thank god for Encores, that's all I have to say about that. Next thing on my "looking forward to it" list is school. Night.